Hello to all my beautiful followers. I am back from clinical recovery treatment and I missed you all a lot!! Here is what I achieved in the last 2 months:
- I dont count calories anymore (which is such a relief!!)
- No rules about caloric intakes anymore!
- I eat three meals per day, no meal-skipping
- I started eating sweet things again
- I try to listen to my body more and eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.
- I didnt binge at all in the last two months
- I didnt gain any weight and I didnt lose any weight (isnt that weird?? I mean, I eat far more then before but still, I havent gained anything)
- I feel good and my energy-level is much higher than before
I know, that I am not fully recovered yet. Its still a long walk. I still restrict and I watch my weight. But I am on a good way and I want to share this with you. I want to show you, that recovery is possible!
So, this is the day. Off to recovery for 6 weeks. Bye Bye Tumblr. I will miss you guys madly. I hope you will all be there when I return :-)
And you know what? Although I have barely eaten in the last couple of days, I already feel much better. I am starting to recover even though I’m still home. I know that I will need to do some rough changes in my life when I return. But I am positive and I am looking forward to my life ahead of me.
I don't want to recover because it's only been 6 months since I've been like this. I could never be called an anorexic/bullemic cos I still eat and I'm still fat. I've weighed 44kg for past few months now and I'm not losing it anymore, it kills me everytime I look at the scales. I think what your doing is great, recovering, but I'm not ready to tell anyone. I have no idea how to go about it but I know what I'm doing Is wrong, but I don't want to stop. Not yet.
Hey my love. You certainly are in the circle of eating and purging so yes my dear, and i really hate to tell you this, but you are bulimic. And you should get help. You can do this, I am so sure love!
Its even better if it has only been 6 months. That is the best time to start recovery. You can fully recover. The longer you go on, the harder it gets. And at this point, you wont be able to finish yourself. And the thing is, that you wont lose weight like this. You are bulimic. The circle of eating and purging makes your body store evrrything. Bulimic patients are not skinny, they are normal- to overweight.
I am sorry that I have to tell you all this. I just want the best for you and I wish you all the best and maybe you can think abou what I said?
When I am back from recovery, I want to get healthy, fit and toned. It will be a hard way. Thats why I need to unfollow any thinspo/triggering blogs, like yours. I am so sorry.
Kisses and hugs
Neither will being skinny. Or having a boy/girlfriend. Or being rich. Or wild.
Being a positive person that helps others, the community and yourself (by eating right and exercising) will lead you to happiness.
Away for 6 weeks
My dearest followers. I will be in treatment for the following 6 weeks. I will get rid of ana!!! When I come back in 6 weeks, I want to change my blog into a healthy fitspo blog. And I will tell you about recovery. For the next 6 weeks, I wont have my laptop and I will delete my tumblr-app on my iPhone, so that I wont look at thinspo secretly. I really want to recover! I want my life back!!!!!! Wish me luck? :-) I love you all!!!!
i think you should go to treatment sweetie, it sounds like a good opportunity and can be really helpful for you. whatever you decide to do i wish you the best of luck! xox
AnonymousThank you so much for your kind words love
Ana Recovery
I talked to a therapist yesterday. She wants to treat me in hospital, in a special clinic for eating disorders. I can start next monday and it will last 6 weeks. No mobile phone, No Internet. My bmi is 18.. I am not too skinny.. but my rules of restricting foods are harsh. My therapist says now is the best time for recovery!
Shall I do it?
Maybe its a bit too overacted??? I dont feel ill!!!!!!
